Sadness

Apologize for not writing yesterday, Sunday was just a horrible day.m that carried over into Monday. Early Sunday morning my little Felix dog got hit by a car. It was kind of my fault, I didn’t have them on a leash, and I do live by a busier road. And that is something that I have to come to terms with.. Everything that happened from that point on just went from bad to worse. But anyway, my husband took it pretty hard, because he really liked Felix. So, his way of dealing with things was to go out and get another puppy from the same dad that Felix came from. He brought him to me yesterday, he has named him Oscar

I think, whenever a pet leaves us our hearts break. And everyone deals with sadness in different ways. My husband, gets mad and then tries to fix things. I deal with it slowly, overtime. The sadness stays with me. Until eventually it doesn’t hurt quite so much anymore. time makes things better. you’re heart never heals, but the pain does lesson. So now, I’m driving to work, talking to you, and I have Oscar with me. Oscar just turned six weeks old, so he can’t be left at home for Atlas babysit. Atlas, in case you don’t know, is my 12-year-old more fat than fluffy yellow lab whom I love dearly. However, he would not be a good babysitter to a teeny tiny Yorkie. We will have to let Oscar get a little older before that happens. Eventually they will spend the days doing whatever they do while I work, probably have parties, but not yet.

What my husband has done, has given me something else to think about besides Felix. I’m sure he kind of did it on purpose. And in his way, he was being sweet, and he was also numbing his own pain at the same time. He also didn’t want to think about losing Atlas. You see, Atlas has seizures. Little dogs for whatever reason seem to help Atlas to not have seizures. When there is no little dog in the house, he will have a seizure at least once a week, when there is a little dog in the house he will have a seizure or maybe once every three or four months. And that old guy doesn’t need to be having any seizures.

So, I will be focused on taking care of Oscar instead of focusing so much on what I did wrong with Felix. Having a puppy that small is almost like having a baby, you really don’t have time to think about anything else. My boss, thankfully, gave me the OK to bring him to work until he’s old enough to stay at home with Atlas. So, hopefully potty training will be easier with Oscar than it was with Felix. I miss Felix desperately. In fact, the first night that he was gone I could still feel him snuggled up to me as I slept. I didn’t feel that last night, but I had Oscar to take care of. My heart is broken and it hurts the way it always does. When we lose a pet. But, eventually it won’t hurt so much. Felix brought unmeasurable joy into my life. He was a character, he was definitely his own man. Well, as much as any dog can be. But, it’s not fair to Oscar for me to dwell on Felix. And anyone that knows me knows that I’m all about being fair. So, unfortunately I have to say goodbye to Felix. I can’t dwell on the past, and tomorrow’s a new day. I will miss him so much, but as with any pet we truly love I know that he will be waiting for me on the other side of the rainbow bridge. I don’t want the day to be too soon however it can’t come soon enough. I will definitely never forget him, and I’m glad to of had him for the short time that I did.

I hope each and everyone of you have an amazing day today. I’ll leave you with a couple pictures, I’ll introduce you to Oscar in the first picture, and say goodbye to Felix in the last ones. Talk to you soon

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s